Giant Cell Tumor – 10 months post-op
Winter is coming. I can feel it in, well, my knee.
I find myself wondering, still, if it’s ever going to feel ‘normal’ again. Not stiff. Not tight. Not sore. Not tender. Not fragile. Not half numb. Because as of right now, it’s still all of those things. It’s almost nonsensical how susceptible it is to pain. The other day I was moving a cabinet in our garage and its door swung open and hit my knee right where the hardware is – and it was like lightning shooting through my leg. It was an impact that would have gone unnoticed on my other knee.
In the months immediately following surgery I was frustrated and frightened, wondering if I’d ever be able to walk normally again. Would I be able to bike? Hike? Run? Walk without a limp?
Huge strides have been made since then. I can bike and hike, albeit not for as far or as long as I once could. I still do not run, however, and there are still times when I catch myself limping, subconsciously favoring that leg because it feels stiff or sore or simply because it feels fragile.



